Thousands of 'what ifs' went thru my head today. I don't know why. I sometimes feel my life is empty or missing something. I knew a little while ago when I started kung fu, that part seemed ok, until I stopped going because I owed the Sifu 850 dollars and I couldn't pay. I know I'm missing the fact that I don't have money to play with like I used to. I lost my job almost a year ago. But, I don't think that's it. I know another hole in my life was filled when I started playing ice hockey again. I still play every Wednesday, so I don't think that's it. I have the kind of 'what ifs' like what if I didn't meet the people I did, what if I wasn't stubborn and bought that Honda in the first place, what if I wasn't short, what if I had better luck, what if I won a million dollars, that type of stupid sh't. I dunno where my mind is. At least I have hockey today!
After school Ryan, Tanya, Charlie and I took a mini road trip to The City, San Francisco. Had to buy some air freshener for Ryan and my car. I just love those little things in life sometimes. I miss the days where I just throw away money. I wanna turbo kit for my car, body kit and paint, a Honda CBR motorcycle, Subaru WRX all-wheel drive turbo, and IS300, the list goes on and on. The trip lasted about a good 4 hours. It's nice to get out once in a while. Too bad it had to be The City, I don't really like going there. Itís too busy, easy to get lost. San Jose is just right. Ah, home sweet home.